it’s been a long 2 weeks. it’s been hard. there have been moments of horrible agony. i’ve stepped out of my comfort zone though.. i emailed two folks to ask for help with some of my research.. and i made an adult call and sent another adult email.
i also have gotten my butt down to salt lake city twice in two weekends and tomorrow will be a third time in three weekends. i really don’t like the construction between exits 213 and 206. 2 weekends ago it was to listen to a new friend sing amazing songs. folk songs. the kind of music that brings comfort and joy to my heart all at once. i love that kind of music. i hope i didn’t overwhelm my new friend with how much i enjoyed his singing and guitar playing.. but when music moves the soul in that way it is hard to stop it. 1 weekend ago it was to listen to an amazing woman talk about her trip to palestine with the compassionate listening project and then participate in a 3 hour compassionate listening project workshop. the power in this woman’s story about palestine? her father is a palestinian refugee from jaffa and technically, because she is her father’s daughter, she is considered one of the 4.62 palestinian refugees. what was moving about her talk? how she said she isn’t angry at the israelis.. but rather, when she thinks of them, she feels sad and i heard compassion too. a palestinian refugee without anger at the israeli government. really, the only word is amazing and i am glad that i drove 1-15 between exits 213 and 206, twice (round trip), so i could hear her. and tomorrow, tomorrow is another drive down for lunch with that singer songwriter new friend. it’s good to get out of cache valley.
but the sent. the verb in the subject? that, that is referring to what i did just before i started this post. i sent my dissertation proposal to my committee. my chair, bless her heart (btw, whenever i say or think that phrase i always hear it in my head in a southern accent) – she is so patient with me and my neuroses – has been going back and forth with me on this for awhile. 7 versions. i hope the committee makes the defense part easy, but i hope its easy because what my chair and i have sent is good. i hope i can find a time where they are all available the 3rd or 4th week of february. next step. sent.
today started horribly. a horrible that i don’t want to relive but that verb, sent, makes the end far better. the day got better. i’m glad.
Love.
I love your strength of purpose and dedication to doing things even when they are hard. Remember that a dissertation is made up of baby steps (of which you have already contributed many) and persistence.
Vickie