she is a lesbian, radical feminist, cat lover, bibliophile, non-smoker, unitarian universalist (though she doesn't go to fellowship on a regular basis) and in the process of becoming athletic again. she dreams of being jeanne d' arc and swooping in and saving those that need saved (though she'd rather not be burned at the stake). she is a loyal friend who will do anything she can for those she loves, but she can flakey sometimes when her depression flares up. she is a loner. a southerner self-transplanted to the pacific northwest in 1998 and now believes that it doesn't rain enough here. she's known for her honesty, she can't help it, its the only way to be. she is 4'8" tall, and round. she has natural blonde hair and she also has blue eyes. she is very intense. she hates small and large crowds, she prefers the one on one or the one on a few. she has no idea what she wants to do with her life, though she would like to see more of the world than what she has seen so far (a good part of the continental united states) and she very much wants to be a mother. finally, she has huge crushes on alix olson and carolyn gage (these are from a far).

i did something really gutsy. we were all singing, someone would all start and then the crowd would slowly join in. at somepoint i moved into the middle of the crowd and then i found that we were without song. so i suggested "singing for our lives." its a great song, its easy to learn and people can make up their own verses. i started with we are a gentle angry people, then on to a peaceful, loving people and then others , and other people started their own verses. it was incredible. absolutely lovely. then we all had a chance to share our thoughts. i told the crowd that i was about to leave for greece and that, thanks to them, i would be able to take with me to the people i meet that yes, we are a country of peace loving people. many people wished me a safe journey.

while i was there i looked up at the stars. i thought of many people who share this great sky of ours. i thought about lisa, who sent me the candle i held, and then my stepfather, my mom, and her friend lynda. i realized then that in a week and 2 days i'll be able to look up at the sky and for the first time in almost a year jim and i would be seeing dark at the same time and light at the same time. well, almost, we'll be one hour different. i thought about all the people in ethiopia that he's trying to help, i thought that though we might be there organized about iraq that we were there for all the people in the world, including the people my stepfather is helping. it will be a great joy for me to be able to look at the darkness and know that jim and i are close enough to share that darkness, and share that light. i wish i could get closer, but i'll get that in july. but this is better than the space that sits between us now.

no, its not been till recently that i've realized how much i miss my stepfather. he's a good man. my mom fucked up the second time, and the first-- well, she didn't fuck up cause she got zack and she and my dad make much better friends who care very much for each other than they did lovers. this third time she got someone that she is truly in love with and someone that i love very much. this ethiopia bit, though jim is doing good work, its too long. i miss him. and sharing darkness and lightness with him is just one more reason to look forward to my adventure across the atlantic.