she is a lesbian, radical feminist, cat lover, bibliophile, non-smoker, unitarian universalist (though she doesn't go to fellowship on a regular basis) and in the process of becoming athletic again. she dreams of being jeanne d' arc and swooping in and saving those that need saved (though she'd rather not be burned at the stake). she is a loyal friend who will do anything she can for those she loves, but she can flakey sometimes when her depression flares up. she is a loner. a southerner self-transplanted to the pacific northwest in 1998 and now believes that it doesn't rain enough here. she's known for her honesty, she can't help it, its the only way to be. she is 4'8" tall, and round. she has natural blonde hair and she also has blue eyes. she is very intense. she hates small and large crowds, she prefers the one on one or the one on a few. she has no idea what she wants to do with her life, though she would like to see more of the world than what she has seen so far (a good part of the continental united states) and she very much wants to be a mother. finally, she has huge crushes on alix olson and carolyn gage (these are from a far).

i still feel crappy. i can't call my dr about it. i know she's got someone on call, but i refuse to talk to them.. call me a prima dona, but i don't want to have to explain anything to anyone. if i get really desperate i'll go talk to the friendly pharmacist who is a friend of my dr. i probably went up too fast, but 125 mg didn't bother me and 150 mg didn't bother me.

and this morning with a headache and i'm all flushed. i've decided i'm not going to go swimming in this condition. and i'm going to do my best not to feel guilty about it. i'll clean around here today instead. and go to the post office. i'm hoping the post office won't be too crowded, i'm assuming the christmas rush is over. i need to get a haircut cause the hairs on the back of my head are starting to drive me crazy, the way they rub against my neck, but i'm too lazy to do that today. no, i just think i'll hang out here and hopefully clean. and faith is having a chat tonight, so i think i'll go hang out there.

i did get 2 very touching emails in my box this morning. one in the form of a comment and one in the form of an email. its amazing that i go about my business and i don't realize that i'm affecting other peoples lives as they are affecting mine. its a wondeful thing to hear. it makes my heart warm up. i'm gonna call it christmas joy.

and on that note i need to break out the milk.