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its just me
can't sleep tonight. i think i'm getting sick. i hope not. but my head is hot and my skin is all sensitive and shit. i don't know whats up. all i personally care about is not having to miss my weekly massage therapy appointment with miriam, my massage therapist.
might sound like i'm spoiled, maybe i am? but remember, i'm seriously crazy too. i got some heavy shit going on in my head. well, so do a lot of y'all, and y'all don't have weekly massage appointments. i don't care. all i care about is not being sick on wednesday so i don't have to miss my appointment.
and like i've said before, its not just about the massage, it's also about miriam. i really like her and her energy. we click together. last week she was able to detect that i wasn't fully there, she said something along the lines of "what's going on?" at some point, so i told her. and we worked out a solution. she was able to feel it and i wasn't talking. and she was also able to pick up which shoulder was feeling the worst. it was my right one last week, as i'd been holding babies with it, hoping to not bother the already bothered left one, which, as my dad predicted, just brough out pain in the right one. so, yes, dad was right, both shoulders are fucked up in some way.
so, see. she's quite in tune with my body. and me. and as she's working on me i think. i let my mind free form itself... and then i have talk therapy the next day-- just by coinsidence-- where i'm able to ground out what my mind free formed the night before. my talk therapist and i both agree that the two -- the touch (aka massage ) therapy and talk therapy --- are very complimentary of each other.
so, i'm sitting up, not doing myself a bit of good, worried about being sick on wednesday. a situation i can't control. i guess i should be more worried about monday, eh? and the fitting at the dentist for the crown, and the working with the kids in the morning. i'm not stressed about the drs appt, cause she sees sick people all the time.
anyhow, i've not been physically sick in forever, except for hormones. so. i'll just play this one by ear.
and on that note, i'll shut up and attempt to go to sleep.
Posted by brooke at September 15, 2002 02.19.12 AM
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sounds like you and me both have that insomnia thing going on...*sigh* maybe I should find myself a good maseuss...:)
Posted by Gina at September 15, 2002 9:07 AM
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